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this is the hardest thing i will ever have to do... im leaving im going back to washington to be with family and to raise my child alone with there help... its so hard because im stil so in love with tj but i know im loosing him he doesnt want this and ya its my fault ive been wanting him ive been trying to get him to do things and try when he doesnt want to but i need to be happy and do whats right for the baby i guess getting pregnant changed me because ive been wanting more from him ever since i got pregnant and i dont regret any of this i dont regret comming here. im angry at myself for not being better not trying more to make him happy. i feel like my heart is ripped out of my chest im scared about this is it the right decition am i doing what is right? what if im not what if he really does love me and want me and all this. i just dont feel like he does i know hes just scared of it all to but i am to im the one who is going through it alone leaving is the hardest thing i will ever have to do.....