love life

i finaly found a guy that is really cute my family likes him and i likew him alot he makes me happy and he is very wwell mannered and he is from alabama i love his accent and he makes me feel like nothing can ever touch me or harm me and i can be open with him and we have alot in common and he makes me laugh all the time and none of my ex boyfriends even did that.

what about life?

family might be the greatest thing in the world but there comes an end i dont like some of my cussins no offence but i come all the way to idaho to help there mom with stuff and to see my grandparents and all they do is be rude and self centered and its anoying and no one cares and i found a guy who accually makes me laugh and he makes me smile and i like him the oly problem is my mom doesnt like him just cuz we met on the internet doesnt happyness count for anything not much to say shes never liked anyone iv dated i dont blame her but she wanted better and everyone thinks hes better even jen likes him and who cares how we met i like him and he is respectful and he has manners and we understand eachother and we havent stoped talking since we met hes in the army and he lives really close and im trying to move into an appartment but i dont want people using me so thats y i want to move alone i can still see my mom and my friends so y cant i do anything that pleases my mom no matter what i do shes either displeased or not happy with what i do but everthink its who i am y cant people accept who i am i have a reason for the choises i make. people are so careless and are way worse than me but they r accepted with what they do but i cant do anything right and i feel like im just a embarassment to my family no one is perfect but ever since i moved out of my moms house my relationship with my mom crumbled and i told her i wasnt sstaying there forever and yet i still came over all the time hahaha but its all good its life i guess.

idaho, i miss......

its hot here...... lol i miss my mom and my friends i miss the constant rain i miss puddle jumping in the rain i miss the sunny but rainy days i miss my moms cooking i miss my moms traditions i miss playing in the hose water with xander i miss fighting with my sister megan and restling with levi and i miss making mac n chees and corndogs and fries with jen and i miss haveing holidays with my mom and i miss my sister danyel and i miss her helping me wen im sad or down and i miss fishing with my mom.

today i went to a bunch of lakes and went fishing with only my mom and i had alot of fun mom caught a fish but it was tiny lol she let me drive the whole time lol it was funny cuz i almost hit everything and she was getting nervouse the whole time and im reading a new book series and i love it im nervouse about moving to idaho i made the desition to and every one wants me to but now im not so shure i wanst to so im really nervouse i dont now if its wat i really want its a huge decition and ill be 18 but i dont wana miss everythiing here but i like being there i have been thinking maby ill go for two months but idk yet i still have a bad feeling iv never had this feeling so it might be good it might be bad im still waiting on and answer from u no who... anyways all my friends have told me to go and so has my boyfriend but i dont want to regret going but i dont want to regret not going life is full of tough decitions now that im almost 18 i have to learn to make my own decitions and man is it hard its not as easy as people make it look well night everyone

Danyel and mom

my old ipod the charger broke and it was a shuffle and it was hard to find and i wouldnt trade my being short faor anything in the world lol have a beautiful day

love brandi hawkins

ps: love yall

waz up all to all infinity and beyond

today is a happy day i dont really know why but it is and its mom and dads aniversary and i am exited i get to make brownies in class as the executive cheif and today i get to go home and clean do laundy put it away then eat then go to alens and i am exited because i declared a re- match on the game we played yesterday it is wrestling and i have my own character now lol and today is sunny but clowdy and im passing my classes and monday i have to be at school befor and after school to tack a test and a quiz for ap english and geomeretry.

hope you have a happy happy day

love
Brandi Hawkins
ps: love you all

me

i am good i am stilll short of cource lol its cold here and i got my new ipod so im exited and i have alot of movies and music and tv shows on it and its 160 GB its alot but it was so cheap and its black i havent really put it down yet and its sunday its kinda a slow day but its ok theres no school tomarrow i am getting my grades up so im happy

"to be or not to be"

today was ok i guess it was more depresing than other days i dont know why but have you ever thought that you need a vacation a break from life and all the drama well i do and i just wish i could go to dinner with my boyfriend he really wants to take me out to dinner just us and i know my mom will say no but im not going to stop trying . i am almost shur that he is what i really want i love him and im always happy when i receive a txt from him and i am happy when he calls me and i love to be around him hes not like other guys hes respectful he eccuages me to fulfil my goals in life and to be nice to my family he is loving and he is helping me with personal progress again and scripture masterys is alll i want is 1 dinner just the two of us but i guess its just a dream