its a new day....a new start

im getting ready for school and im glad i got up at 4:30 on my own i just wish my mom could know how much i love her and shes a great mom but she just needs to let go of me just a little i just want her to trust me and she is today only because i have to do my math and a big test then on fridayill stay after school to take a test and i love you all and im so hungry right now so im going to go eat some food

its a new day....a new start

i had an ok day lol

i really want to spend more than a week at my sisters house she doesn't want me there that long because she will have to work and wont see me well other than that there was a lot of drama at school because Brittney didn't get to be with the boy she likes so i went up to her and told her to grow up and the worlds not about guys and what Brittney wants well i got to stay after school and do some of my homework my mom doesnt trust me but i have nothing to hide other than enbarasment one of my best friends needs some help and i want to help because people have already given up on him his name is alen what would u do if ur family doesnt like the church and loves ur girlfriend but you dont like her u think shes anoiing and hangs all over u what would u do if all this made ur grade go down and now ur fighting to go to church and trying to but u feel like no one is there to support u because they all gave up on you what would u do if ur best friends mother thinks u like her and want nothing than sex but thats not it u just want a friend other than skylar(i hate him a lot he hurt me so bad) personaly id want to hang out with more people that has the spirit and that goes to church because u thing its true and u think thats all life is really about id explain everything to my friends mom and try to get her trust because she is one of the best moms ever because she knows how to raise a child (6) everyone that reads this i love school and today we were singing in class at 8:00 am to wake up and my teacher is in a choir and hes funny he looks like the naked mole rat off of kim posible i love my algebra class i acually understand how to do the math and im learning how to do more and im moving to hunors on january 30th for english right now we are reading a quart senario on the book Monster and i is funn because we get to act it out at the end of the semester im playing a guy who is an eye wittnes who is in jail and just wants less time in jail lol u get to learn a lot the teacher said i didnt have to play this part but i wanted to it would teach me a lot about that kind of life and also how Quart goes i love school and i love my new friends but i hate all the prepps and wanna bes and the gangs they are all stupid and i love the soccor groups but there just a mix of all the groups in school high school is not what i expected but its funner and its worth it and i love it i love to help peopl with stuff but i have decited i want to be a flight attendant because it would be fun and id travel the world and see new cultures and meet new people and see new things today was also kind of sad my best beond best of friends had surgery and today was her first day back and shes not doing so well so i would like to just shpend a day with her so id be staying after school just to be with her she is 14 she has spinal biffida and she is in a lot of pain her mom likes me she thinks im a great influence on her daughter malia perado today she asked me if i thought there was anythig after this life and i told her i think there is a whole new world after this one and i think she will be in the best part because she will be able to walk again and she isnt scared to die when its her time but she wants me to always be there with her in her life as her best friend and i told her im not going anywhere so shes happy and im happy i finnaly found someone i can be best friends with so everyone please pray for her she is the best thing that has happend to me sice we moved here and id choose our friendship over any guy any day and i love her she is so insperational to me in so many ways i dont were make-up anymore because she told me i look so beautifull without that mask on my face and shes right why cover our beauty we just need to shine and show our real beauty not some one we are not please just let this inspire you all

i love you all

Brandi Hawkins

Mrs. Munch

today 1-10-09

im so happy today is Saturday and im trying to keep it happy but my mom keeps getting mad at me for no reason and then she gets mad at me for getting mad back ya im gonna get mad if someones getting mad and being rude to me im trying to get money so i can go to my sisters house for two - three weeks she lives in Arizona and i hop i can get the money this time im gonna be busy this week i have tests and some finals reviews and more tests and my young women leaders are trying to get me to keep going to activity's but i don't want to go because i don't like the people there there rude and i want to fight one of them and the president if it wasn't illegal id shoot her and my own mom is starting to take there side i don't want to go i don't want to be around them i really wanna buy the twilight movie when it comes out its a great movie i also want the entire book series its Wat got me to start reading again and now im going into honors on January 30th im exited my class is having a party on Friday and then we are having an assembly on Friday right after our party well my mom wants me to get up and do my Landry and theirs a lot of it well there always is its never ending lol